I think I have changed as a person. I always thought being alive is all you need. Being a living creature, is what we need to protect and nurture. But life had its way of saying screw you to you in a most beautiful way. Don’t get me wrong, in this 25+ years of breathing oxygen in this world, I have learnt a thing or two. To say the least, the lessons on this blog. Ah, who am I kidding?
I always thought I was a fearless person, and my greatest testament to that was not being afraid of spiders and lizards. Yes, It is a big deal. There is a saying or rather a dialogue - death is the only fear you should have. BS. It could be true, but I refrain to believe it. Over the time, I have realized, I am not as fearless as I thought I was. Yes, I am very badass (or so I think) and sharp tongued, but nothing beats it like emotions. One of my close friends call me emotionally constipated, which I used to ignore it blatantly, is causing a nightmare now. Emotional constipation, or e-constipation as I call it - is a “phenomena” where a person keeps all their feelings closed off from the world, unbeknownst to their own beliefs of being expressive. Well, the latter part is just my interpretation of how all this concept works. It is basically being constipated without the actual shit (here, literally).
Now, I don’t want to not believe that I am e-constipated. In fact, because I am constipated emotionally, the repercussions of that are very edgy. What if, one lets go of that emotions and feel things (not literally, ew) for an e-constipated person? Will the universe explode? Pretty sure it wouldn’t outside, but inside, oh yes! Let’s admit it - Emotions and self-perseverance are the fears one should have and not the death. The day those fears are lost, I shall be fully liberated (of course emotionally, duh!) and so will you be.
Blesses, my children!
P.S. Finally a secret stash of notes from my Mac made it here!
