Dreams can scare u...

Yeahh...Dreams can scare u..not exactly in a ghostly way. I had this dream yesterday night...of me dyign... and nobody cared... It scared me a little not because I was dead and I had no soul left to haunt others. It was for nobody turning up to offer condolence or even calling at my place to ask(or just sarcastically ask, If she really died or just faking it)..scared a lil..since I knew that it was a dream, a subconcsious one. Now that its morning and very much alive, I realized it was nothing real.. but then I happen to think if the case would have been a real thing,then.....?
But some where in my heart I knew(optimism speaking!)...it will not happen..*here comes the confusion*
Well..it didnt matter ...cos i m very much Alive now,but noone knows what will happen tommorow..
Ohhkk..now that I was thinking..I knew I am not a person who is close to anyone...it can really happen that nobody pays a heed except a few(relatives included) who respects my wonderful parents to have such a daughter who was soo out of the world(they did call me peshki, which I translated for myself as weird and not belonging to their family)...never talked to them n thought she had no respect for elders.. but wht can I do with my so-called weird behavior of acting shy and admitting the same.
Not elaborating much, i realized and learnt ...that I can never be Close to any, absolutely anybody... some people feel , I am close to them..but they'll never know my so many thoughts which have been kept in my soul n mind(post drama divya: What was I thinking)...for as long as i have been Alive...hmmm....*sigh

Real lesson: today's Divya says, I am a horrible story teller which makes my decision stronger to keep my blog a secret